I feel like I shouldn’t open up to anyone. I just shouldn’t bother trying to find someone that will make me happy. After such a long time of not liking anyone, then finally falling for someone that I thought was good enough, I was happy. SO happy. He made me smile and laugh. I could talk to him about anything. And we fit, we were like puzzle pieces. We just matched together. I’ve never liked anyone as much as I liked him. But of course, shit happens to me. It’s never happened before, so I never knew what being played felt like. Now I know, it’s a shit feeling. And that was why I told myself to not like anyone, because I was afraid of this sort of thing. I’m afraid that it won’t work out, or I’m not good enough or that in the end, I’ll get hurt. My parents tell me all the time that guys only want one thing, that’s why I never trust any of them. I’m the type of person that when I like someone, I like them A LOT. And this is the first time I’ve actually been hurt…
But because of how I am, I get over things faster then anyone, I know, can. Within a day, I was happy. I was SO happy. I was happy because I was content. I know everything happens for a reason. And I thought, God doesn’t want me to be with him right now. God has a plan for me and obviously he isn’t part of this plan. So I forgave him. I thought, there’s still 2 more years of highschool, and I don’t want to ruin a friendship like ours Sophomore year. So I’m over it and we’re still friends:)
Posted 5 months ago
